With all the stress of going away tomorrow. Nick came home tonight and we tried to go and check in first and then we can be more relaxed tomorrow. Hailey climbed on a chair and turned all the light on and off. I told her off and with no TV, she was probably bored, she kept doing it and ignored me so I slapped her. Nick saw that and I told you that he was angry but he could not really show it in front of Hailey, so he said. “that was really hard.” I started to regret my behaviour and Hailey was crying and asked me ,” Why you hit me all the time?” Without thinking that she just did the same thing this afternoon to me when she was hungry. Chloe was an indirect cause for that. Sorry Hailey! Mommy is really sorry.
Ok, I know physical punishment was bad and it never worked, we should not do that to kids. It is going to damage them dadada… I promised I will not do it and I will really try. May be more sleep will prevent this happen.
Talking about sleeping, I have a one hour nap with Hailey this morning. She did not need to go to school, she was not well, and Ika told Chloe to playgroup. I really want to sleep a bit more, but Hailey already awake. So, I told her that if she slept with me in my bed for a little bit, will take her to Macdonald and she can have the pancake for breakfast. She slept with me in my bed for nearly 1.5 hours, first time in my life, and it was really nice. I can start to see why some parents enjoy sleeping with their kids. It is lovely to hear her breathing and although she kicked me several times, it was nice and I hope that we can do this again!
